Thursday, January 20, 2005
They're back. I'm off.
My parents left the Mayo Clinic today. The good news, if you can call it that, is that the course of treatment my Mom had been undergoing in San Diego was determined to be her best bet. The bad news is that there was no magical Mayo silver bullet, which I think we were all holding out hope for. They still aren't even sure exactly what kind of cancer it is. But a world-renowned team of Mayo Clinic doctors decided that surgery was out (for now) and put her back on the long, uncertain road of chemo treatment we started on.
People ask me "How are you doing with all this" and there is no adequate or accurate answer. My official role in the family is Mr. Power of Positivity, so I'm trying to keep that going externally at least. And when I'm home, I'm the Minister of Good News/Bad News, aka "Phone Grinch" by some of my Mom's friends who call way too often for updates and get sort of huffy when I won't wake my Mom up out of a chemo-induced coma so they can chit-chat with her. In short, there's a lot of spin going on. But the situation is so uncertain, I feel like it's better to focus on the positive and best possible outcome. Even if I don't always believe it myself.
In other major life-disrupting news, I finally got the schedule for my kitchen remodel: Feb 7 - Mar 4. That's if everything goes well and on schedule. I'm having to apply a lot of spin tactics to this as well: I'm getting a new kitchen! This is a perfect opportunity to get out of town! See my Mom! Visit friends and clients in LA! Relax in Palm Springs! Do some work on the cabin in Birch Bay!
The overriding problem is that the timing just stinks. I have so many things I could (and should) be doing here in Seattle, especially with a pending May start-date for my local TV production. But staying here is not an option. A well-informed source recently told me that as a Libra, creating a comfortable environment is very important for me, as well as a sense of balance, order and control. So trying to live through a kitchen remodel is out for sure. And spending the next month away, not by choice, is also a tough nut to swallow. I'm sure my outlook will change once I'm floating in a Palm Springs pool with some friends I miss terribly. What's weird is that I used to have no problem leaving LA for weeks, just to hang out in Seattle. I guess I really like it here. Love it even.
People ask me "How are you doing with all this" and there is no adequate or accurate answer. My official role in the family is Mr. Power of Positivity, so I'm trying to keep that going externally at least. And when I'm home, I'm the Minister of Good News/Bad News, aka "Phone Grinch" by some of my Mom's friends who call way too often for updates and get sort of huffy when I won't wake my Mom up out of a chemo-induced coma so they can chit-chat with her. In short, there's a lot of spin going on. But the situation is so uncertain, I feel like it's better to focus on the positive and best possible outcome. Even if I don't always believe it myself.
In other major life-disrupting news, I finally got the schedule for my kitchen remodel: Feb 7 - Mar 4. That's if everything goes well and on schedule. I'm having to apply a lot of spin tactics to this as well: I'm getting a new kitchen! This is a perfect opportunity to get out of town! See my Mom! Visit friends and clients in LA! Relax in Palm Springs! Do some work on the cabin in Birch Bay!
The overriding problem is that the timing just stinks. I have so many things I could (and should) be doing here in Seattle, especially with a pending May start-date for my local TV production. But staying here is not an option. A well-informed source recently told me that as a Libra, creating a comfortable environment is very important for me, as well as a sense of balance, order and control. So trying to live through a kitchen remodel is out for sure. And spending the next month away, not by choice, is also a tough nut to swallow. I'm sure my outlook will change once I'm floating in a Palm Springs pool with some friends I miss terribly. What's weird is that I used to have no problem leaving LA for weeks, just to hang out in Seattle. I guess I really like it here. Love it even.
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